When I asked you if you loved me, you turned your back and refused to face me “Of course, I do,” that was what you said But I never knew what was going on in your head.
When I asked you if you loved me, I was hoping you would say the words immediately But you just smiled at me with your captivating caramel eyes And I could not decipher whether or not they were just expressing lies.
When I asked you if you loved me, you walked a few steps away from me, You looked at me with disappointment When all I wanted was acknowledgement.
When I asked you if you loved me, I was confused with the response you gave me You planted a kiss on top of my head You squeezed my body under the sheets in your bed.
When I asked you if you loved me, I asked not because I believed you didn’t I knew you did, but I wanted to be reminded But all you believed in was that you weren’t trusted.
When I asked you if you loved me, I didn’t foresee that you would leave me, With all the happy memories you had shared with me I never knew you had the capacity to forget me that quickly.
I want to write you a poem that would make you feel loved but neither could I fathom nor express the feelings I have for you right at this moment I could love you today and hate you tomorrow I could get drunk and kiss you and then push you away I could say all the things you want me to say and leave you expecting, parching, starving looking for love that got lost before it even began
right under these sheets.
Tiny veins contracting
Blood ceaselessly pumping
Into beating hearts causing systole
A sign of life; a sign of normality
But, you know what’s not?
How I feel for you
when I see your lips curve upwards
my heart ceases to contract
my blood refuses to pump
my heart has a mind on its own
and decides to skip a beat
I forget my heart actually exists
and when I feel your skin against mine
I remember it is you
who makes my heart complete.
Don’t tell me to get a life
because my life doesn’t revolve around you
You aren’t the center of my universe
You aren’t the moon to my sun
Nor the milky way to my galaxy
But you should know that
In my list of priorities,
You’re on the topmost part of it.