A poem written by Kristine Pineda for Toast&Tea
I’d be lying if I told you, I didn’t love you
I’d be lying if I told you, I hated you
You were my one great love
that I asked from above.
I’d be lying if I told you, I stopped thinking of you
And I’d be lying if I told you, I don’t miss you
You still cross my mind
Our memories — good and bad, combined.
I thought I would be okay
Until I caught myself staring at the bay
I am getting weak and this is wrong
Wish I could be strong.
I wish I could erase all the memories
That turned instantly into tears
You’re one of the best
But you turned out to be just a guest.
In a heart I own
In these lips that is always on frown
You made these little mouth smile
From the love we had from a thousand mile.
Now I’m saying goodbye
And I wish I could fake the smile in my eye
But one has to walk away
And go on every single day.
I thank you for the smiles
We have shared even from the miles
Hoping this will be the last
And for us to heal fast.
As I write this, I wish you nothing but the best
And just let our hearts take a rest
As I say goodbye to someone
that I don’t want to be addressed.
Kristine Pineda is a twenty-five year-old Filipina living in New Jersey. She is the author of The Blank Polaroids. She loves photography, writing short poems and short notes about love and life.