For the first time in my life, I am not scared of anything other than the thought of being alone. I have never been scared of it before. I loved having just myself and being away from people, but right now, the only thing I am scared about is the idea that there is a big possibility that I may be alone forever.
It is weird how the things I am not scared of happening before are the only things that scare the hell out of me now, while the ones I have been scared of are the ones I couldn’t care less about anymore.
I am no longer scared of falling;
of getting my heart scarred multiple times by the same person;
of losing myself;
of being out of my comfort zone;
and of taking risks.
I no longer care whether or not you love me back, and I no longer care about losing you despite all the efforts I am willing to make.
The only thing I am scared of is the fact that despite me saying all these things, I’d still end up being alone.