You have that smile that anyone could fall for. You’ve got those almond-shaped eyes I have learned to adore. It is beautiful how they taper and it’s not every day that I see a person who supposedly has big brown eyes but has the same eye shape as I do. I like the way your eyes seem nonexistent when you try to smile; and the way your lips curve upwards. You have no idea how they could make anyone’s life one hundred times better. Your well sculpted body is like a clone of a higher being, and you have almost all of the incredible talents that makes me want to wish I were you. You are amazing. You are achingly…beyond beautiful.
I like how even the littlest things you do could make me smile. You could always make my day a whole lot brighter than it ever was. Sometimes I think it is too good to be true. I think that you only make me feel good about myself so I could make you feel the same way. Most people I know are like that. They give, so they could get something in return.
Despite all of this, I still think you are amazing. The light in you still shines brightly…and I wouldn’t want you to waste that light on me.
Don’t fall for me.
When I look at you, I think of all the things you could do. You have the world in your hands. You could do anything you want to do. You could dream of something in a moment, and make it real a few minutes after. You could wish for something and be able to have it in an instant. You have a bright path ahead of you, and I do not want to be the one to switch off all the lights that brighten it. We are different…so much different. We are miles and worlds apart.
Don’t make me fall for you.
I am always so anxious. I have lots of fears, and I am scared I wouldn’t have to push you away. You would do it on your own. You would realize that being with me would not be the best decision you would ever make. I’d be territorial and needy. You would feel suffocated with all the love I would shower you. I wouldn’t be able to control myself, so I’d give you everything. My inner drama queen would push you down to your limit, and you would realize how draining it would be. I am not the one you would want to be with.
I wouldn’t want those things to ever happen. It would leave me devastated. I had been in my most vulnerable state before, and it took me a lot of courage to stand on my feet. I learned to guard my heart by planting roses around it. It was calloused by the thorns that grew gradually over the years, and I wouldn’t want you to remove them just to find out how wounded it was. I wouldn’t let you find out that despite the barricade I put up around my heart, there is still a part of me that hopes you would go against all odds to conquer it and make it your own.
Please, don’t make me fall if you don’t intend to do the same. Don’t do it…if you were not a fan of give-and-take. Don’t. Please, don’t.
Don’t make me fall, if you don’t plan to catch me at all.